thankful tuesday

Today, I am thankful for:

• Possible changes coming up at work
• Halfway through the semester
• Hope
• Pinterest
• We have had such little snow this winter
• Technology
• Going to Maine in a few weeks
• Moving on
• The kiddos

thankful tuesday

Today, I am thankful for:

• Advil
• Mental Health Days
• Technology
• I have the whole weekend off
• Friends who understand how crappy I feel right now
• Trying to push through no matter how crappy I may feel
• AAD's birthday is tomorrow!
• Mozzarella sticks
• Spell-check
• Finally letting go of my old blogs means I'm also letting go of an old relationship

funk

I'm so unmotivated. I know part of it is that I'm not feeling very good about myself lately (I have crazy ex to thank for that one).  I wouldn't say I'm depressed, but I'm definitely not feeling great about myself or anything I have going on at the moment with work, school or just in life.  The psychic life coach yells at me about intentions and desperation--I'm doing my best! I write in a gratitude journal every day, and I'm trying to be clearer about intentions and what I want.  But F***, I am still not very happy and that has to be okay/allowed...for now.  Weekdays are better. But weeknights and weekends...holy hell...it is torture.  I just want to hit the fast forward button and skip to the part where I feel better.

weekends

I just got the inevitable Any fun plans this weekend? I despise that question.  I don't have "fun" weekends.  I literally sit my ass on the couch and read or write for the entire two days; with intermittent breaks to run errands, clean and do laundry.

This is what my life has become and will continue to be for at least 3 more years.  I chose to get back to school and I am okay with the time commitment.  I just wish everyone else was.  I cannot tell you the amount of backlash I've gotten from family, friends, dates, coworkers that usually sounds like c'mon you can't be that busy.  But I am, and the fact that they don't accept it and/or don't respect it is absolutely infuriating to me.

who am i and what am i doing here?

I do think my blog description sums me up fairly well.  I have been blogging for about three years, maybe a bit more.  However, my crazy ex (I know, we all have one) just can't see to stay away from my former blog and it just brings up old/bad shi**.  In an attempt to truly move on...here I am.

Blogging for me is cathartic.  It's a place for me to vent my frustration(s) without fear of judgement or retribution.  I'm not writing for you or for anyone else, so don't expect perfection or consistent political correctness.

Thankful Tuesday

Today, I am thankful for:

• Finally letting go of my old blog and moving on to something new
• Excedrin
• Hope
• Good friends
• Coffee
• New budgeting software
• Quiet day at work (which I needed)
• Had a nice lunch with a coworker
• Sleep
• Pretty things